today is 25th of december 2005. lot of things had happened around this time of the year, last year, i was involved in an accident, which resulted in a unique scar appearing at the inner side of my right foot. 25th of december also marks a year of encik Radzuwan's decease, the hardworking father of Naim who is a friend of mine. 26th of december, tsunami. everything ends and starts simultaneously. all we need is just a lil' time to reminiscence the past and use it as a direction for the future.
p/s: in case i dun have time to wish my girl happy anniv... luv u ayang! heh~ happy anniv dear. tq for sticking wif me all these while. our anniv is on the first of january, pretty commercial eyh?~ heh!
25.12.05
24.12.05
none
goin' back to uniten~
good luck everybody!
They made up their minds
And they started packing
They left before the sun came up that day
An exit to eternal summer slacking
But where were they going without ever knowing the way?
They drank up the wine
And they got to talking
They now had more important things to say
And when the car broke down they started walking
Where were they going without ever knowing the way?
Anyone could see the road that they walk on is paved in gold
And It's always summer, they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows wandering off somewhere
They won't make it home
But they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happy there today, today.
[The Way; Fastball]
fuckin new song!
Artist: System Of A Down
Album: Hypnotize
Title: Lonely Day
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It’s a day that I can’t stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn’t exist
It’s a day that ill never miss
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go
I wanna go with you
And if you die
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
It’s a day im glad I survived
p/s: the new album, they are getting old, so they are playing it slow, but still, their music are erm.. music to my ear.
Album: Hypnotize
Title: Lonely Day
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It’s a day that I can’t stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn’t exist
It’s a day that ill never miss
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go
I wanna go with you
And if you die
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
It’s a day im glad I survived
p/s: the new album, they are getting old, so they are playing it slow, but still, their music are erm.. music to my ear.
28.11.05
[-]
In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round,
I stand there for a minute starin’ straight into the ground,
Lookin’ to the left slightly, then lookin’ back down,
World feels like it’s caved in – proper sorry frown,
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us,
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust,
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me,
But her eyes glaze over like she’s lookin’ straight through me,
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity,
When they open up she’s lookin’ down at her feet,
So then I move my hand up from down by my side,
It's shakin’, my love is crashin’ before my eyes,
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies,
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh,
‘Cause I can’t imagine my life without you and me,
There’s things I can’t imagine doin’, things I can’t imagine seein’,
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely,
Please, please, I beggin you please,
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested,
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she’s blessed with,
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures,
By pushin’ my hand away to my chest, from hers,
And I’m just standin’ there, I can’t say a word,
‘Cause everythin’s just gone,
I’ve got nothin’,
Absolutely nothin’,
Tryin’ to pull her close out of bare desperation,
Put my arms around her tryin’ to change what she’s sayin’,
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in,
Look into her eyes to make her listen again,
I’m not gonna fuckin’, just fuckin’ leave it all now,
‘Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow,
And you’re gonna let our things simply crash and fall down,
You’re well out of order now, this is well out of town,
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist,
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight,
Turns around so she’s now got her back to my face,
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away,
I know in the past I’ve found it hard to say,
Tellin’ you things, but not tellin’ straight,
But the more I pull on your hand and say,
The more you pull away...
I stand there for a minute starin’ straight into the ground,
Lookin’ to the left slightly, then lookin’ back down,
World feels like it’s caved in – proper sorry frown,
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us,
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust,
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me,
But her eyes glaze over like she’s lookin’ straight through me,
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity,
When they open up she’s lookin’ down at her feet,
So then I move my hand up from down by my side,
It's shakin’, my love is crashin’ before my eyes,
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies,
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh,
‘Cause I can’t imagine my life without you and me,
There’s things I can’t imagine doin’, things I can’t imagine seein’,
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely,
Please, please, I beggin you please,
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested,
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she’s blessed with,
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures,
By pushin’ my hand away to my chest, from hers,
And I’m just standin’ there, I can’t say a word,
‘Cause everythin’s just gone,
I’ve got nothin’,
Absolutely nothin’,
Tryin’ to pull her close out of bare desperation,
Put my arms around her tryin’ to change what she’s sayin’,
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in,
Look into her eyes to make her listen again,
I’m not gonna fuckin’, just fuckin’ leave it all now,
‘Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow,
And you’re gonna let our things simply crash and fall down,
You’re well out of order now, this is well out of town,
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist,
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight,
Turns around so she’s now got her back to my face,
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away,
I know in the past I’ve found it hard to say,
Tellin’ you things, but not tellin’ straight,
But the more I pull on your hand and say,
The more you pull away...
tired
i'm tired of being lonely facing my probs. cant hold myself together much longer. alone and lonely. i hate being lonely. ignoring a part of myself. it's still there, not gone, just ignored. like a pizza, with a slice pizza incomplete, it is a whole pizza no more. i am myself no more, just part of me, so should you call me by the name c(1/2)h or am?
needs new means to divert my attentions. the thing is building up inside of me. is this real? i can't make this unreal. home is where my numb heart died. all of the days have passed me by, all of the sun is gone... away. -dead (i wish)-
needs new means to divert my attentions. the thing is building up inside of me. is this real? i can't make this unreal. home is where my numb heart died. all of the days have passed me by, all of the sun is gone... away. -dead (i wish)-
26.11.05
different shoes~
you will never understand sumone until you are in his position. an inferior being will hope that their superior will understand them. superiors here are defined as sumone who has more advantage than the inferiors; and the example of these advantages varies from having lots of money, to having too many lots of very very affectionate opposite sex friends. superiors tend to forget what it likes being an inferior, or maybe they never had the chance to be an inferior. thus, the inferior dun have any power to change the superior's mind about anything, eventhough he tried times and times again. i guess my therapy no longer works.
my flaws are the only thing left that's pure. can't really live, can't really endure. everything i see reminds me of her. god i wish i didn't care anymore. the more i touch the less i feel. i'm lying to myself that it's not real. why is everybody making such a big fucking deal? i'm never gonna care anymore. what the hell am i doing? is there anyone left in my life? what the fuck was i thinking? anybody want to tell me i'm fine? where the hell am i going? do i even need reasons to hide? i am only betrayed. i am only conditioned to die.
my flaws are the only thing left that's pure. can't really live, can't really endure. everything i see reminds me of her. god i wish i didn't care anymore. the more i touch the less i feel. i'm lying to myself that it's not real. why is everybody making such a big fucking deal? i'm never gonna care anymore. what the hell am i doing? is there anyone left in my life? what the fuck was i thinking? anybody want to tell me i'm fine? where the hell am i going? do i even need reasons to hide? i am only betrayed. i am only conditioned to die.
i fear...
i fear i have an undiagnosed mental illness... help me sumone~ plz...
JE SUIS UN PIERROT (I am a clown)
White (Green) face, painted red mouth,
Painted smile, painted laugh,
Forever smiling, never frowning,
C'est Pierrot,
Je suis en Pierrot,
I am clown, I am one now.
Under the paint, my predicament is perfect,
C'est Pierrot who spins the web
Of beautiful lies
The white (green) paint so perfect, so porcelain
Who knows what creature it hides?
Je Suis un Pierrot,
I smile, I laugh, I jump, I entertain,
Everything is for everyone,
Except for Pierrot,
Except for the clown,
C'est Pierrot's painted smile,
Hides the sorrow of the creature,
Who knows the real Pierrot,
Is the one beneath the paint?
Je suis un Pierrot,
Above and underneath,
Now and forevermore,
I will be c'est Pierrot,
In pretense and in reality.
adapted from anynomous
JE SUIS UN PIERROT (I am a clown)
White (Green) face, painted red mouth,
Painted smile, painted laugh,
Forever smiling, never frowning,
C'est Pierrot,
Je suis en Pierrot,
I am clown, I am one now.
Under the paint, my predicament is perfect,
C'est Pierrot who spins the web
Of beautiful lies
The white (green) paint so perfect, so porcelain
Who knows what creature it hides?
Je Suis un Pierrot,
I smile, I laugh, I jump, I entertain,
Everything is for everyone,
Except for Pierrot,
Except for the clown,
C'est Pierrot's painted smile,
Hides the sorrow of the creature,
Who knows the real Pierrot,
Is the one beneath the paint?
Je suis un Pierrot,
Above and underneath,
Now and forevermore,
I will be c'est Pierrot,
In pretense and in reality.
adapted from anynomous
22.11.05
R.I.P.
woke up at 9.30am, went to take my bath, weared my shirt and my 'kain pelikat'. i guessed, it's my turn to play the ps2. suddenly, akim told me that haikal deleted the ps2 memory. "Haikal? WTF he is doing here? and how the hell he get to play the ps2? we've got the ps2 hidden in mom's room!" when i entered mom's room, i saw afiq and harith, i scolded them, eventhough i wasn't very angry at the time, because i've trained myself to be more to being disappointed rather than being angry at times like these, but i still have to let out my disappointment right? hey, maybe some if not all of you said i was being childish and reacting too big for such a small matter. yes, i admit it's not the end of the world, but please remember the countless hours i've spent to play the games, including the midnight oil burned. it's like another part of me which grows together wif me inside the ps2, which was just deleted simply like that. another part of me is lost, which stays wif me when everybody is asleep, when i have no money, when i'm angry, when i'm disappointed, when i'm unable to go out, when i'm not wif my friends, whenever. some of you might say sumthing about starting back from scratch, yes, i can restart, but it wont turn out exactly the same, and in the end, that will left me comparing, and saying sumthing like,"this is not like before...this is different" life goes on rite~ but the memory will always be there.
R.I.P. to Amanitium Cho, my persona in WWE raw vs smackdown 2006, who won the royal rumble and took the world heavyweight title from Batista in a six-man battle royale in wrestlemania, with attributes points of 70, you will always be remembered.
R.I.P. too to the custom title belt i made yesterday in WWE raw vs smackdown 2006, which costs 3,350 wwe points.
after losing all these things, i will be playing the game no more, even if i play it, it's just to help my brothers to win the match.
now, i will be back to play Harvest Moon: What A Wonderful Life, i've spent almost 30 hours playing this game, and Haikal is lucky to not to erase the memory of this game too.
btw, haikal, harith, and afiq are my lil' cousins. today, i have 7 cousins staying here, and they are annoying, noisy, and killing me. i dun have any cousin as my peers, i'm the first male grandchild, and the next male grandchild is my own brother.
well, what the hell~ i dunno, maybe i'm just depressed wif my result, wif my family, wif myself, wif everything.
imma outta here~!
R.I.P. to Amanitium Cho, my persona in WWE raw vs smackdown 2006, who won the royal rumble and took the world heavyweight title from Batista in a six-man battle royale in wrestlemania, with attributes points of 70, you will always be remembered.
R.I.P. too to the custom title belt i made yesterday in WWE raw vs smackdown 2006, which costs 3,350 wwe points.
after losing all these things, i will be playing the game no more, even if i play it, it's just to help my brothers to win the match.
now, i will be back to play Harvest Moon: What A Wonderful Life, i've spent almost 30 hours playing this game, and Haikal is lucky to not to erase the memory of this game too.
btw, haikal, harith, and afiq are my lil' cousins. today, i have 7 cousins staying here, and they are annoying, noisy, and killing me. i dun have any cousin as my peers, i'm the first male grandchild, and the next male grandchild is my own brother.
well, what the hell~ i dunno, maybe i'm just depressed wif my result, wif my family, wif myself, wif everything.
imma outta here~!
21.11.05
phew!
bloody blogger.com! i almost lost the [mushy talks~] post just now. i'm lucky to save it before submitting! lucky nite i guess. so, who knows any casino nearby? lol.
mushy talks~
it was 2:30am, suddenly, sumthing came across my mind. it's about a quote i heard a few years back and it doesn't make any sense for me until just now. "relationship is not about finding the similarities between two people, it's about respecting the differences between them." i haven't learn how to respect others, and because of that, i've hurt feelings of my beloved again and again. i'm trying to learn, i hope i still have the chance of respecting my relationship and my beloved before it's too late. I LOVE DINA. hahah~ me too, can be a mushy writer at times, occasionally of course. that's all for now~
regards,
[sumonewhoissoinlovewifdina. ]
Vrei sa pleci dar nu-mã, nu-mã iei
Nu-mã, nu-ma iei, nu-mã, nu-mã, nu-mã iei
Chipul tãu si dragostea din tei
Mi-amintesc de ochii tãi...
When you leave, my colors fade to grey, wanna take me
You don't wanna take me, you don't wanna take me
Your image and the first love
remind me of your eyes ...
{Dragostea Din Tei; O-zone}
regards,
[sumonewhoissoinlovewifdina. ]
Vrei sa pleci dar nu-mã, nu-mã iei
Nu-mã, nu-ma iei, nu-mã, nu-mã, nu-mã iei
Chipul tãu si dragostea din tei
Mi-amintesc de ochii tãi...
When you leave, my colors fade to grey, wanna take me
You don't wanna take me, you don't wanna take me
Your image and the first love
remind me of your eyes ...
{Dragostea Din Tei; O-zone}
19.11.05
OMFG, here cometh the result!
finally, the result for my first term of bachelor in electrical power engineering came out and unfortunately, i got what i expected to get from my final exam. I got B- for my C++ programming, and A- for my lab, the two which i loathe the most. As for the other subjects, they varies from C+ to E. Looks like i am so very dead. it's 4:21am, time to sleep. i'll continue tomorrow maybe, if i'm not a dead shit by then. what do u suppose i will say to my parent? "mom, i'm in probation, academically." i'm not telling my superior, i mean my parent.
regards,
mewhofailsagainandagainbutneverlearns.
17.11.05
mumbles
bored to death now (yeah, as alwaesz),
sleepy, i dun wanna sleep,
lonely, hunny is already asleep.
i wonder,
will we human ever get satisfied?
why do we alwaesz want sumthing better than everybody,
why do we alwaesz compete to be the best,
wut is the point?
wuz it bcoz of incompetent = fool?
and we dun want to be one?
or wuz it bcoz of the respect we get from it?
i dunno...
i never had the experience of being the best,
wut is the point?
is being the best equals everything?
is being the rest such a catastrophe?
this is my personal view,
i am a slave of an irrational system. i can not change any of it. should i go with the flow? should i oppose the flaws? should i stay put?
are there any absolute right, or wrong? wut about true or false? moreover, the ying yang of contradicting ideas is subjective and relative, not absolute.
sleepy, i dun wanna sleep,
lonely, hunny is already asleep.
i wonder,
will we human ever get satisfied?
why do we alwaesz want sumthing better than everybody,
why do we alwaesz compete to be the best,
wut is the point?
wuz it bcoz of incompetent = fool?
and we dun want to be one?
or wuz it bcoz of the respect we get from it?
i dunno...
i never had the experience of being the best,
wut is the point?
is being the best equals everything?
is being the rest such a catastrophe?
this is my personal view,
i am a slave of an irrational system. i can not change any of it. should i go with the flow? should i oppose the flaws? should i stay put?
are there any absolute right, or wrong? wut about true or false? moreover, the ying yang of contradicting ideas is subjective and relative, not absolute.
15.11.05
null
i am broke,
i am not well,
i am bored to death,
i dun want to study,
nor i want to stay at home,
my dull life is full of emptiness,
i've nuthin to fill the space inbetween,
my feet is my only carriage,
and so I've got to push on through.
and while I'm gone,
everything's gonna be all right!
everything's gonna be all right, yeah!
when you are honest enough to write everything about the real you, that is when you write something universal and not about you alone.
spare me, i'm a lunatic...
i am not well,
i am bored to death,
i dun want to study,
nor i want to stay at home,
my dull life is full of emptiness,
i've nuthin to fill the space inbetween,
my feet is my only carriage,
and so I've got to push on through.
and while I'm gone,
everything's gonna be all right!
everything's gonna be all right, yeah!
when you are honest enough to write everything about the real you, that is when you write something universal and not about you alone.
spare me, i'm a lunatic...
31.10.05
balik kampung?
akhirnya~
sudah tiba masa aku pulang ke tempat kelahiran aku~
kedah darul aman~
aman~
malahan, terlalu aman untuk aku hadapi~
aku tidak tahu apa yang akan aku lakukan di sana~
bayangkan~
di rumah pun aku hanya dapat membuang masa dengan menulis sampah~
cuba bayangkan disana~
argh! aku bengang! sgt tegang!
aku tidak mahu begini~
bila ku tidur ku ditegur~
bila ku tidak tidur ku ditegur juga~
rambutku juga ditegur~
apa lagi lain-lain perlakuan ku~
semua yg aku lakukan tidak sempurna~
semuanya ingin, perlu, dan mesti ditegur~
itu di rumah~
di sana?
argh! lebih sampah!
lepas subuh 1 haribulan~
aku akan pulang ke Kedah Darul Aman~
doakan aku selamat sampai dan pulang~
selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin jika aku ada tersilap kata dan perlakuan terhadap kamu semua~
sekian~
sudah tiba masa aku pulang ke tempat kelahiran aku~
kedah darul aman~
aman~
malahan, terlalu aman untuk aku hadapi~
aku tidak tahu apa yang akan aku lakukan di sana~
bayangkan~
di rumah pun aku hanya dapat membuang masa dengan menulis sampah~
cuba bayangkan disana~
argh! aku bengang! sgt tegang!
aku tidak mahu begini~
bila ku tidur ku ditegur~
bila ku tidak tidur ku ditegur juga~
rambutku juga ditegur~
apa lagi lain-lain perlakuan ku~
semua yg aku lakukan tidak sempurna~
semuanya ingin, perlu, dan mesti ditegur~
itu di rumah~
di sana?
argh! lebih sampah!
lepas subuh 1 haribulan~
aku akan pulang ke Kedah Darul Aman~
doakan aku selamat sampai dan pulang~
selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin jika aku ada tersilap kata dan perlakuan terhadap kamu semua~
sekian~
mind my music~
p/s: i've done a very very long review about my music, twice, and the post just disappear like a dog shit everytime! argh! i'm mad! FUCK!
-disappointed-
i was writing this long post, then suddenly~ swoosh!~ my three paragraphed and still yet to be finished disappears before my very eyes. i was shocked. then i feel hungry. now i'm going to eat my sahur. i'll continue my post later.
[guessed wrong? lol!]
[guessed wrong? lol!]
28.10.05
my life around ramadhan
my birthday is on the 13th of Ramadhan
i had my differential Equation exam on my birthday, and it sux. my worst birthday ever. the nite before, i had a wish came true experience, my favourite singer sang the 'happy birthday' song to me. guess who! :-)(nah~ not slipknot!)
chin peng's reached bazaar Ramadhan (finally!)
chin peng, a friend of mine, only reached bazaar ramadhan on the 22nd of Ramadhan, he had a few tries to go to the place before that, but somehow, he failed to reach the destination in the end.
breaking fast
the uniten musollah provides delicious meals for the people who came to break their fast there. and it is free. there was this time when it rains and there are no usable car around, we can't go to the musollah and eat for free, thus, the options left are maggie mee and sky juice. (we went to sahur early that day~ too hungry to study) there was this another time when me, chin peng, aarol, epulistixes, omar and erwan were going to bazaar, suhaila's disc brake jammed, leaving me and chin peng stranded near an oil pump station, i fixed suhaila and went to the 'outer crib' (the name for the rented house which serves as our port). chin peng ordered our meals from aarol, they arrived to the crib approximately 20 minutes after the maghrib azan, we prayed a lil' late that day.
tarawikh prayer
we never missed any until the day before the final exam starts. it is clear that the exam is the main factor why we missed lots of tarawikh prayer after the night. it was a great loss.
staying up all nite sleeping down all day
it is a good way to continue to revise for the final exam without the distraction of hunger and thirst. we stayed up all nite and slept all day during the exam, of course, we did not sleep during the exam, only me. huhu.
bombastic examinations
i failed to answer de exam paper properly as a result of lack of sleeping. i failed to answer calculus exam paper properly because i had fever on the examination day. i failed to answer c++ programming exam paper tremendously because of the lack of time. i failed to answer circuit analysis exam paper properly because i didn't read the last chapter of the syllabus. i failed to answer mechanic statics exam paper properly because i just don't know.
uptown here we go!
the nite after the last exam paper, we went to uptown to celebrate the joyous ocassion of the no-more-exam-for-this-sem, there were about 40 people followed the convoy. we have to split into lil' groups so that it was easier for us to survey the stuffs. i bought sumthing there. we ate for sahur at about 4 am at a mapley near there, the motorist group went back early as they afraid to be stuck in the rain. we went back to uniten at about 6am.
that's all for now, i'm going to eat my sahur. adieu
i had my differential Equation exam on my birthday, and it sux. my worst birthday ever. the nite before, i had a wish came true experience, my favourite singer sang the 'happy birthday' song to me. guess who! :-)(nah~ not slipknot!)
chin peng's reached bazaar Ramadhan (finally!)
chin peng, a friend of mine, only reached bazaar ramadhan on the 22nd of Ramadhan, he had a few tries to go to the place before that, but somehow, he failed to reach the destination in the end.
breaking fast
the uniten musollah provides delicious meals for the people who came to break their fast there. and it is free. there was this time when it rains and there are no usable car around, we can't go to the musollah and eat for free, thus, the options left are maggie mee and sky juice. (we went to sahur early that day~ too hungry to study) there was this another time when me, chin peng, aarol, epulistixes, omar and erwan were going to bazaar, suhaila's disc brake jammed, leaving me and chin peng stranded near an oil pump station, i fixed suhaila and went to the 'outer crib' (the name for the rented house which serves as our port). chin peng ordered our meals from aarol, they arrived to the crib approximately 20 minutes after the maghrib azan, we prayed a lil' late that day.
tarawikh prayer
we never missed any until the day before the final exam starts. it is clear that the exam is the main factor why we missed lots of tarawikh prayer after the night. it was a great loss.
staying up all nite sleeping down all day
it is a good way to continue to revise for the final exam without the distraction of hunger and thirst. we stayed up all nite and slept all day during the exam, of course, we did not sleep during the exam, only me. huhu.
bombastic examinations
i failed to answer de exam paper properly as a result of lack of sleeping. i failed to answer calculus exam paper properly because i had fever on the examination day. i failed to answer c++ programming exam paper tremendously because of the lack of time. i failed to answer circuit analysis exam paper properly because i didn't read the last chapter of the syllabus. i failed to answer mechanic statics exam paper properly because i just don't know.
uptown here we go!
the nite after the last exam paper, we went to uptown to celebrate the joyous ocassion of the no-more-exam-for-this-sem, there were about 40 people followed the convoy. we have to split into lil' groups so that it was easier for us to survey the stuffs. i bought sumthing there. we ate for sahur at about 4 am at a mapley near there, the motorist group went back early as they afraid to be stuck in the rain. we went back to uniten at about 6am.
that's all for now, i'm going to eat my sahur. adieu
σ╘╩╥┘
it's been a while since i last actually write anything here. the last thread was posted about four weeks ago. it is 4 am in the morning. i'm not sleeping. i'm fucking bored here at home. i dunno wut to do, and i'm having problem wif my scoot. any suggestion that can help me ease up a lil' here at home?
2.10.05
1.10.05
home at last...
approximately 17 days more before my 1st sem bachelor final exam, i'm sitting here in front of the pc, thinking about my future, will miracle help me again this time? with the attendance of mechanic static class which i reckon is only about 50%, the complicated wisdom of DE which still couldn't make its way into my brain, the too-many-unrevised-chapters subjects such as Calculus III, Circuit Analysis, and C++ programming, it is totally not wrong to say i am still unprepared for the upcoming final. as i'm typing these words now, i'm having a great hunch that taking the final exam wont be as hard as usual, it will be much more harder than the usual hell.
friendster is becoming more and more 'exposing' day by day, first they put your face into every member of yours start page to tell them that you've just updated your profile, eventhough just by adding a single letter alone to your profile satisfied that condition (read: UPDATES). and now, they told us who visits our page. this might sounded cool from a profile page owner point of view, as we are able to identify who views our page and who don'ts. but have you thought from a perspective of a visitor? visit someone and that someone will know you, and might even thought of it as something more than a mere visit. friendster are slowly adapting into an agent for millions of posers (pencapub) to keep themselves updated and annoying to everyone.
my pemacu ibu jari (thumbdrive) is a goner... huhu
friendster is becoming more and more 'exposing' day by day, first they put your face into every member of yours start page to tell them that you've just updated your profile, eventhough just by adding a single letter alone to your profile satisfied that condition (read: UPDATES). and now, they told us who visits our page. this might sounded cool from a profile page owner point of view, as we are able to identify who views our page and who don'ts. but have you thought from a perspective of a visitor? visit someone and that someone will know you, and might even thought of it as something more than a mere visit. friendster are slowly adapting into an agent for millions of posers (pencapub) to keep themselves updated and annoying to everyone.
my pemacu ibu jari (thumbdrive) is a goner... huhu
28.9.05
op amp, LRC and first order circuits.
dear mr. circuit analysis~ [eeeb113]. i will take your test one on one tomorrow. you will see, that i can answer all those operational amplifiers, capacitors and inductors, and first order circuits questions succesfully. no time now, going back to study~ good day.
p/s: happy ramadahan el mubarak to all~
p/s: happy ramadahan el mubarak to all~
20.9.05
low profilic dog shitting razorblades
/* got my DE result a couple of hours before, still wondering whether i should feel grateful or bloodyfool for it, friendster had changed its interface, can't never keep a low profile on new updates now, less than a month away before my final exam, can't breath, shaking like a dog shitting razorblades, haven't cut my fingernails since last saturday, need to change, want to improve, want to be a useful person, currently listening to radio by alkaline trio, want to sleep, having class at 9 AM tomorrow forces me to wake up early in the morning, want to sleep, cannot sleep, shutting down this comp, -n- */
Taking your own life with boredom,
I'm taking my own life with wine,
it helps you to rule out the sorrow,
it helps me to empty my mind,
Making the most of a bad time,
I'm smoking the brains from my head,
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red,
This kettle is seeing red...
[Radio - Alkaline Trio]
Taking your own life with boredom,
I'm taking my own life with wine,
it helps you to rule out the sorrow,
it helps me to empty my mind,
Making the most of a bad time,
I'm smoking the brains from my head,
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red,
This kettle is seeing red...
[Radio - Alkaline Trio]
19.9.05
More than words.....
"Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand,
All you have to do is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands and touch me,
Hold me close don't ever let me go,
More than words is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me,
'Cause I'd already know"
more than words, the extreme
All you have to do is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands and touch me,
Hold me close don't ever let me go,
More than words is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me,
'Cause I'd already know"
more than words, the extreme
14.9.05
toothpicking~
-just now-
finished my circuit laboratory session at 9 PM. 4 hours straight on circuitry doesn't make me any smarter.
-hours before that-
missed my DE quiz, which is very somewhat depressing especially when Mr. Johnny Nasrulhaq Boyce wrote all the hints at the whiteboard without erasing it during the quiz.
-a lil' bit more hours before that-
woke up at 9 AM, took my bath and answered my nature call, ready to go to class at 9.20 AM, D.E. class starts at 9 AM, didn't want to upset the lecturer for coming late to his class, so i continued to sleep.
-exactly an hour before that-
woke up at 8 AM, feeling sleepy and lazy to go to Ban Kean Nam's Static class, brushed my teeth and continued my sleep.
-the night before-
revising D.E., which is a hellistic event. updated my blog. Missing my boo~
-the near future-
will be going to uptown. going to take my bath. going to top up my credits. going to do my Isya' prayer. going to sleep. still missing my boo~
finished my circuit laboratory session at 9 PM. 4 hours straight on circuitry doesn't make me any smarter.
-hours before that-
missed my DE quiz, which is very somewhat depressing especially when Mr. Johnny Nasrulhaq Boyce wrote all the hints at the whiteboard without erasing it during the quiz.
-a lil' bit more hours before that-
woke up at 9 AM, took my bath and answered my nature call, ready to go to class at 9.20 AM, D.E. class starts at 9 AM, didn't want to upset the lecturer for coming late to his class, so i continued to sleep.
-exactly an hour before that-
woke up at 8 AM, feeling sleepy and lazy to go to Ban Kean Nam's Static class, brushed my teeth and continued my sleep.
-the night before-
revising D.E., which is a hellistic event. updated my blog. Missing my boo~
-the near future-
will be going to uptown. going to take my bath. going to top up my credits. going to do my Isya' prayer. going to sleep. still missing my boo~
nicc o tynne
Black days as the sun burns,
is clearer in the seein' the seen,
forgone such alibi,
suck the days makin' feelin' flies,
minds waiting for the day,
till the day... I'm o.k.....
don't damn me...
don't damn me please...
I'd say..
wake up~
when I smell nicc o' tynne..
you pay~
when I smell nicc o' tynne...
I lie~
when I smell nicc o' tynne...
you pray~
when I smell nicc o' tynne...
is clearer in the seein' the seen,
forgone such alibi,
suck the days makin' feelin' flies,
minds waiting for the day,
till the day... I'm o.k.....
don't damn me...
don't damn me please...
I'd say..
wake up~
when I smell nicc o' tynne..
you pay~
when I smell nicc o' tynne...
I lie~
when I smell nicc o' tynne...
you pray~
when I smell nicc o' tynne...
an okie for an okie, an okie for my donkey
started at 3.40 AM
{
}
paused at 3.41 AM
started at 4.14 AM
{
d.e. quiz will be having
sleeping noisy friends
psyching up
stupendous anonymous
red humectant lip
toothpicking
}
ended at 4.30 AM
lookin' forward this saturday, B.B and F.D.A~
{
}
paused at 3.41 AM
started at 4.14 AM
{
d.e. quiz will be having
sleeping noisy friends
psyching up
stupendous anonymous
red humectant lip
toothpicking
}
ended at 4.30 AM
lookin' forward this saturday, B.B and F.D.A~
5.9.05
essential supplements {proposedbyxone}
these are the food stocks of A4-04-11, xone's, gen's, rith's, fish's, and mine. can we survive until month's end with only these? let just wait and see.
this is my first time writing from amanah, i felt very relaxed. 10 megabyte per second, as fast as streamyx~! yeah! lets get it on bebeh![mr.johnny'n'F.D.A]
4.9.05
suhaila sophea, the friendly fiend.
"It was on a dreary night of November, that I beheld the accomplishment of my toils. With an anxiety that almost amounted to agony, I collected the instruments of life around me, that I might infuse a spark of being into the lifeless thing that lay at my feet. It was already one in the morning; the rain pattered dismally against the panes, and my candle was nearly burnt out, when, by the glimmer of the half-extinguished light, I saw the dull yellow eye of the creature open; it breathed hard, and a convulsive motion agitated its limbs."
[from The Modern Prometheus a.k.a Frankenstein , Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley]
The name Frankenstein is often incorrectly used to refer to Frankenstein's Monster rather than the fictional university student who gives the novel its name. The creature – "my hideous progeny" – was not given a name by Mary Shelley, and is only referred to as "The Monster", "The Creature" and "Frankenstein's Monster", or as Victor Frankenstein called his creation more commonly, "The Fiend." Some justify the naming of the Creature as "Frankenstein" by pointing out that the Creature is, so to speak, Frankenstein's offspring.
for more information, visit http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frankenstein
my suhaila sophea dear~ don't worry, i'm not mr. frankenstein. eventhough you are badly scarred, i will still be by your side and upgrade you from time to time~ just wear that badly teared cover set for a while, i've ordered a new one. as the time come, you'll be as good as new.
"It has yellow, watery eyes, rough stitching, and large size. Victor finds this revolting and although the creature expressed him no harm (in fact it grins at him and reaches his hands out innocently to his creator), Victor runs out of the room in terror whereupon the creature disappears. "
[from The Modern Prometheus a.k.a Frankenstein , Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley]
The name Frankenstein is often incorrectly used to refer to Frankenstein's Monster rather than the fictional university student who gives the novel its name. The creature – "my hideous progeny" – was not given a name by Mary Shelley, and is only referred to as "The Monster", "The Creature" and "Frankenstein's Monster", or as Victor Frankenstein called his creation more commonly, "The Fiend." Some justify the naming of the Creature as "Frankenstein" by pointing out that the Creature is, so to speak, Frankenstein's offspring.
for more information, visit http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frankenstein
my suhaila sophea dear~ don't worry, i'm not mr. frankenstein. eventhough you are badly scarred, i will still be by your side and upgrade you from time to time~ just wear that badly teared cover set for a while, i've ordered a new one. as the time come, you'll be as good as new.
3.9.05
[Death] you never plan it
Hurm~ i'm going home(back at uniten)~
What if i never make it back here?
If I die tonight,
What would I do on my last day?
How to spend the last day, I don't know,
Try to do a million other things,
Hoping somehow time will slow,
I guess what I'm trying to say is,
Take everyday like it was your last,
And work towards your dreams before you pass,
And have a blast while you're at it,
Coz we don't know when we're gonna go,
So make the best of it,
Just keep it real to yourself,
And to all the people,
if you lost somebody before,
Remember they'll be to see you,
Well, if I die tonight,
I wonder where I'll be tomorrow,
Nobody cry, please push away the sorrow,
Coz I haven't been
The best of man,
The best of friends,
The best of mum and daddy's first son,
The best of anything,
If i die tonight,
Will I be forgiven,
For all the people I've been slackin' with when i was livin',
Those who I've hurt their hearts,
Took advantage of and even lied to,
Hug you one last time for forgiveness,
Yea, I would like to,
If I die tonight,
Would you feel the loss,
Tomorrow would you dial my number by accident,
And then suddenly paused,
If I died tonight,
What would happen to her,
How long would it take before she kiss another man,
At fast food joints,
Would you still order the same combo meal for 2,
Things I wish I knew,
If I die tonight,
You know we'll be alright,
Just smile for me,
Reminisce the fond memories...
What if i never make it back here?
If I die tonight,
What would I do on my last day?
How to spend the last day, I don't know,
Try to do a million other things,
Hoping somehow time will slow,
I guess what I'm trying to say is,
Take everyday like it was your last,
And work towards your dreams before you pass,
And have a blast while you're at it,
Coz we don't know when we're gonna go,
So make the best of it,
Just keep it real to yourself,
And to all the people,
if you lost somebody before,
Remember they'll be to see you,
Well, if I die tonight,
I wonder where I'll be tomorrow,
Nobody cry, please push away the sorrow,
Coz I haven't been
The best of man,
The best of friends,
The best of mum and daddy's first son,
The best of anything,
If i die tonight,
Will I be forgiven,
For all the people I've been slackin' with when i was livin',
Those who I've hurt their hearts,
Took advantage of and even lied to,
Hug you one last time for forgiveness,
Yea, I would like to,
If I die tonight,
Would you feel the loss,
Tomorrow would you dial my number by accident,
And then suddenly paused,
If I died tonight,
What would happen to her,
How long would it take before she kiss another man,
At fast food joints,
Would you still order the same combo meal for 2,
Things I wish I knew,
If I die tonight,
You know we'll be alright,
Just smile for me,
Reminisce the fond memories...
2.9.05
intellect?
tried a stupid quiz, surprisingly, i was in the intellectual category, which means this quiz is nothing but pure lie~ i'm putting it here anyway, it's seldom that i'm considered as an intellectual person you know.
# 7 - THE INTELLECTUAL
7's are the searchers. Always probing for
hidden information, they find it difficult to accept
things at face value. Emotions don't sway their
decisions. Questioning everything in life, they don't
like to be questioned themselves. They're never off
to a fast start, and their motto is slow and steady
wins the race.
The lissajour graph viewed on oscilloscope
# 7 - THE INTELLECTUAL
7's are the searchers. Always probing for
hidden information, they find it difficult to accept
things at face value. Emotions don't sway their
decisions. Questioning everything in life, they don't
like to be questioned themselves. They're never off
to a fast start, and their motto is slow and steady
wins the race.
The lissajour graph viewed on oscilloscope
probs probs~ when will the midterm break end?
in just a split second,
it happened,
my beloved suhaila sophea is destroyed,
by my own brother,
i dunno what to do,
i felt very hurt,
i kept remembering the time we've been together,
suhaila and me~
it all went down the drain..
suhaila, i need you!
how can i ever live without you?!
*suhaila sophea is the name of my moskito-125rx
this midterm break sucks!
i dunno how to translate the negativity of my holiday into sentences,
more than words, just more than mere words!
family giving probs, suhaila needs repairing, my wallet bears nothing, exam is coming~
a view of suhaila's bottom
it happened,
my beloved suhaila sophea is destroyed,
by my own brother,
i dunno what to do,
i felt very hurt,
i kept remembering the time we've been together,
suhaila and me~
it all went down the drain..
suhaila, i need you!
how can i ever live without you?!
*suhaila sophea is the name of my moskito-125rx
this midterm break sucks!
i dunno how to translate the negativity of my holiday into sentences,
more than words, just more than mere words!
family giving probs, suhaila needs repairing, my wallet bears nothing, exam is coming~
a view of suhaila's bottom
1.9.05
my playlist pt.2
I HAVE:
3 door down - Here Without You
Aerosmith - Don't Want to Miss a Thing
Audioslave - Like A Stone
Avril Lavigne - Nobody's home
Ayumi Hamasaki - Trauma (Live)
Blink182 - Stay Together for The Kids
Chental Kreviazuk - Leavin on A Jetplane
Coldplay - The Scientist
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
Crazy Frog - Axel F
Crossfade - Cold
Dave Matthews - Gravedigger
Disturbed - Stupify
Dunkills - What a Wonderful World (special edition)
Eagles - Hotel California (unplugged)
Foo Fighters - Best of You
Greenday - Wake Me up When September Ends
Guns N' Roses - Don't Cry
Kci And Jojo - All My Life
Kiroro - Mirae
Kiss - Because I'm a Girl
Korn - Word Up
Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit
McFly - All About You
Mr. Big - To Be With You
Murderdolls - Dead In Hollywood
Murderdolls - White Wedding
Muse - Plugin Baby (live)
My Chemical Romance - Helena
My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay
Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger
Outkast - Roses
P.O.D. - Youth of The Nation
Peter Pan - Mungkin Nanti
Project Pop - Dangdut is the music of my country
Scorpions - Still Loving You
Scorpions - Wind of Change
Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss me
Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss me (version 2)
Sixpence None The Richer - There She Goes
Slipknot - Before I Forget
Slipknot - Duality
Slipknot - Eeyore (Disasterpieces DVD)
Slipknot - Joey's Drum Solo (live)
Slipknot - Left Behind
Slipknot - My Plague (OST Resident Evil)
Slipknot - People=Shit (live)
Slipknot - Pulse Of The Maggots (live at Jagermeister Tour 2)
Slipknot - Purity (live)
Slipknot - SIC (live)
Slipknot - Spit it out
Slipknot - Surfacing (live)
Slipknot - The Blister Exists (live at London)
Slipknot - The Heretic Anthem (live)
Slipknot - Vermilion
Slipknot - Vermilion (live at Tmf Award)
Slipknot - Vermilion pt.2
Slipknot - Wait and Bleed (live)
Slipknot - Wait and Bleed (clay version)
Smashing Pumpkins - 1979 (live)
Staind - Outside
Staind - So Far Away
StoneSour - Bother
StoneSour - Inhale
Story of The Year - Sidewalks
System of A Down - B.Y.O.B.
System of A Down - Chop Suey
System of A Down - Toxicity
Tenacious D - Tribute
Tenacious D - Wonderboy
The Beatles - I wanna Hold Your Hand
The Cranberries - Animal Instinct
The Killers - Mr Brightside
The Rasmus - Funeral Song
The Used - Buried Myself Alive
The Vines - Ride
The Wonders - That Thing You Do
I WANT:
Rainbow - The Temple Of The King
Europe - Carrie
White Lion - When The Children Cry
Firehouse - Love of A Lifetime
Great White - The Angel Songs
Poison - Every Rose Has Its Thorn
Bad English - When I see You Smile
Deep Purple - Soldier of Fortune
Mr. Big - Wild World
All these are videoclips, what do you think of my library?
3 door down - Here Without You
Aerosmith - Don't Want to Miss a Thing
Audioslave - Like A Stone
Avril Lavigne - Nobody's home
Ayumi Hamasaki - Trauma (Live)
Blink182 - Stay Together for The Kids
Chental Kreviazuk - Leavin on A Jetplane
Coldplay - The Scientist
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
Crazy Frog - Axel F
Crossfade - Cold
Dave Matthews - Gravedigger
Disturbed - Stupify
Dunkills - What a Wonderful World (special edition)
Eagles - Hotel California (unplugged)
Foo Fighters - Best of You
Greenday - Wake Me up When September Ends
Guns N' Roses - Don't Cry
Kci And Jojo - All My Life
Kiroro - Mirae
Kiss - Because I'm a Girl
Korn - Word Up
Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit
McFly - All About You
Mr. Big - To Be With You
Murderdolls - Dead In Hollywood
Murderdolls - White Wedding
Muse - Plugin Baby (live)
My Chemical Romance - Helena
My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay
Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger
Outkast - Roses
P.O.D. - Youth of The Nation
Peter Pan - Mungkin Nanti
Project Pop - Dangdut is the music of my country
Scorpions - Still Loving You
Scorpions - Wind of Change
Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss me
Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss me (version 2)
Sixpence None The Richer - There She Goes
Slipknot - Before I Forget
Slipknot - Duality
Slipknot - Eeyore (Disasterpieces DVD)
Slipknot - Joey's Drum Solo (live)
Slipknot - Left Behind
Slipknot - My Plague (OST Resident Evil)
Slipknot - People=Shit (live)
Slipknot - Pulse Of The Maggots (live at Jagermeister Tour 2)
Slipknot - Purity (live)
Slipknot - SIC (live)
Slipknot - Spit it out
Slipknot - Surfacing (live)
Slipknot - The Blister Exists (live at London)
Slipknot - The Heretic Anthem (live)
Slipknot - Vermilion
Slipknot - Vermilion (live at Tmf Award)
Slipknot - Vermilion pt.2
Slipknot - Wait and Bleed (live)
Slipknot - Wait and Bleed (clay version)
Smashing Pumpkins - 1979 (live)
Staind - Outside
Staind - So Far Away
StoneSour - Bother
StoneSour - Inhale
Story of The Year - Sidewalks
System of A Down - B.Y.O.B.
System of A Down - Chop Suey
System of A Down - Toxicity
Tenacious D - Tribute
Tenacious D - Wonderboy
The Beatles - I wanna Hold Your Hand
The Cranberries - Animal Instinct
The Killers - Mr Brightside
The Rasmus - Funeral Song
The Used - Buried Myself Alive
The Vines - Ride
The Wonders - That Thing You Do
I WANT:
Rainbow - The Temple Of The King
Europe - Carrie
White Lion - When The Children Cry
Firehouse - Love of A Lifetime
Great White - The Angel Songs
Poison - Every Rose Has Its Thorn
Bad English - When I see You Smile
Deep Purple - Soldier of Fortune
Mr. Big - Wild World
All these are videoclips, what do you think of my library?
31.8.05
timetable and circuitry
EEEB113 CIRCUIT ANALYSIS I
BEEE(Core), BEPE(Core)
Co-requisite: MATB113
Circuit elements voltage-current characteristics, independent and dependent sources. Kirchoff’s laws nodal analysis, mesh current, source transformation. Thevenin’s and Norton’s theorems. Superposition principle. Operational Amplifier terminal behaviour. Transient response of RC, RL and RLC circuits. Sinusoidal steady-state and impedance. Instantaneous and average power. Computer simulation tool (Pspice) in analysing electric circuits.
i'll be sitting for this exam come next week, i haven't revised on anything, my circuit text book and notes were left at Wan's room, he went to Ipoh and locked the room. What should i do now? I went to miss zaipatimah's metalab site to download the notes, but my pc cannot translate the PDF format. Now i don't know what to do, might even forget the simple Kirchoff's Law if this goes on. Somebody, help me, lend me your notes or anything, just anything that might help me score this exam.
30.8.05
my playlist
my midterm break video clip playlist, maybe i need a lil' bit of variation in choosing my music list. huhu~ these musics may influence me during these 9 days at home~
Slipknot - My Plague (OST Resident Evil)
The Killers - Mr Brightside
The Rasmus - Funeral Song
Dave Matthews - Gravedigger
Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger
The Used - Buried Myself Alive
Slipknot - Vermillion (live Tmf Awards)
Slipknot - Vermillion
Outkast - Roses
Scorpions - Wind of Change
Slipknot - Before I Forget
Slipknot - Duality
Slipknot - Left Behind
Staind - Outside
StoneSour - Inhale
StoneSour - Bother
Murderdolls - White Wedding
McFly - All About You
Disturbed - Stupify
29.8.05
shitting around
being shitted!&!)!$#@))%
please, i want this holiday to end!
enough mid break for me!
waiting to be free again!
just like waiting the hell freezes over!
i'm slowly turning into a psychotic freak~
enough mid break for me!
waiting to be free again!
just like waiting the hell freezes over!
i'm slowly turning into a psychotic freak~
─∞§ⁿ╚Φ╕δ
semalam ada mayat pecah tepi jalan,
berulat cam sial...
semalam ada mayat pecah tepi jalan,
tangan die putus...
semalam ada mayat pecah tepi jalan,
aku rase bangga...
aku yang mengakibatkan mayat tersebut
berbaring di situ...
berulat cam sial...
semalam ada mayat pecah tepi jalan,
tangan die putus...
semalam ada mayat pecah tepi jalan,
aku rase bangga...
aku yang mengakibatkan mayat tersebut
berbaring di situ...
you don't need to bother
Wish I was too dead to cry,
Self affliction fades,
Masochists to which I cater,
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be,
I'll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds...
Wish I was too dead to care,
If indeed I cared at all,
Never had a voice to protest,
So you fed me shit to digest,
I wish I had a reason,
my flaws are open season,
For this I gave up trying,
One good turn deserves my dying...
Wish I'd died instead of lived,
The zombie hides my face,
Self forgotten,
with its memories,
Diaries left,
with cryptic entries...
Self affliction fades,
Masochists to which I cater,
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be,
I'll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on,
I won't let go till it bleeds...
Wish I was too dead to care,
If indeed I cared at all,
Never had a voice to protest,
So you fed me shit to digest,
I wish I had a reason,
my flaws are open season,
For this I gave up trying,
One good turn deserves my dying...
Wish I'd died instead of lived,
The zombie hides my face,
Self forgotten,
with its memories,
Diaries left,
with cryptic entries...
28.8.05
left behind, slip away~
[I ignore you]
As I close my eyes I feel it all slipping away
[I come toward you]
We all got left behind, we let it all slip away
As I close my eyes I feel it all slipping away
[I come toward you]
We all got left behind, we let it all slip away
-duality-
I've screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited last, my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
"You cannot kill what you did not create"
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the words
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You'll live with me cause you left me no choice
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!
Pull me back together
Or separate the skin from the bone
Leave me all the pieces,
and then you can leave me alone,
Tell me the reality is better than dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!
I've waited last, my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
"You cannot kill what you did not create"
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the words
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You'll live with me cause you left me no choice
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!
Pull me back together
Or separate the skin from the bone
Leave me all the pieces,
and then you can leave me alone,
Tell me the reality is better than dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!
people = shit [peopleequalshit]
Here we go again motherfucker
Come on down and see the idiot right here
too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
Whats the matter with calamity anyways?
right? get the fuck out of my face
understand I cant feel anything
it isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound
and like I got a fucking gun against my head
you live when I'm dead
One more time motherfucker
Everybody hates me now so fuck it
blood's on my face and my hands don't know why,I'm not afraid to cry
but that's none of your business
Whose life is it? get it? see it? feel it? eat it? spin it around
so I can spit in his face
I wanna leave without a trace
get out, I don't want to die in this place
people=shit
what you gonna do
people=shit
cuz I'm not afraid of you
people=shit
I'm everything you'll never be
people=shit
It never stops
you can't be everything to everyone
Contagious I'm sittin on the side of devils
what do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it, don't tell me you blew it, stop your bitchin'
and fight your way through it
I'm not like you
I'm just fucked up
come on motherfucker everybody has to die !!
Come on down and see the idiot right here
too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
Whats the matter with calamity anyways?
right? get the fuck out of my face
understand I cant feel anything
it isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound
and like I got a fucking gun against my head
you live when I'm dead
One more time motherfucker
Everybody hates me now so fuck it
blood's on my face and my hands don't know why,I'm not afraid to cry
but that's none of your business
Whose life is it? get it? see it? feel it? eat it? spin it around
so I can spit in his face
I wanna leave without a trace
get out, I don't want to die in this place
people=shit
what you gonna do
people=shit
cuz I'm not afraid of you
people=shit
I'm everything you'll never be
people=shit
It never stops
you can't be everything to everyone
Contagious I'm sittin on the side of devils
what do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it, don't tell me you blew it, stop your bitchin'
and fight your way through it
I'm not like you
I'm just fucked up
come on motherfucker everybody has to die !!
inside out
I'm on the outside.
I'm looking in.
I can see right through you.
See your true colors.
Cause inside of you are ugly.
You're ugly like me.
I can see right through you.
See to the real of you.
I'm looking in.
I can see right through you.
See your true colors.
Cause inside of you are ugly.
You're ugly like me.
I can see right through you.
See to the real of you.
fuckin' bastard PIGeon~
i don't understand the nature...
FUCK IT!
a pigeon and a bat...
FUCK IT!
a pigeon and a bat and a pigeon...
FUCK IT!
a pigeon and a pigeon...
FUCK IT!
a bat and a whole lot of pigeon's shit...
FUCK IT!
hurm~ maybe pigeons are made to be with pigeons after all...
FUCK IT!
and bats are made to be with their shits...
F...~
FUCK IT!
a pigeon and a bat...
FUCK IT!
a pigeon and a bat and a pigeon...
FUCK IT!
a pigeon and a pigeon...
FUCK IT!
a bat and a whole lot of pigeon's shit...
FUCK IT!
hurm~ maybe pigeons are made to be with pigeons after all...
FUCK IT!
and bats are made to be with their shits...
F...~
26.8.05
from human to real mutated human~
it was a terrifying moment, every person in A4-04-11CD had transformed into real human, it was a glorious event.
erwan transformed into a monster named xone.
dayat transformed into a monster named dax.
omar transformed into a monster named gen.
aarol transformed into a monster named rith.
cho transformed into a monster named syne.
they transformed into this montrous form because they loathe exams, tensed up and wallah!
p/s: i loathe Differential Equation very much!
erwan transformed into a monster named xone.
dayat transformed into a monster named dax.
omar transformed into a monster named gen.
aarol transformed into a monster named rith.
cho transformed into a monster named syne.
they transformed into this montrous form because they loathe exams, tensed up and wallah!
p/s: i loathe Differential Equation very much!
24.8.05
aah choooo~!
sick as starfish~ sneezed again and again and again and again...
brought moi 'hanky'chief everywhere,
but it is truly worth it~!
being targeted by mr. ban kean nam certainly doesn't help a lil' bit,
not an early morning person, maybe a lil' late person,
wuarggh!
when is the holiday? i want my truly deserved holiday!
brought moi 'hanky'chief everywhere,
but it is truly worth it~!
being targeted by mr. ban kean nam certainly doesn't help a lil' bit,
not an early morning person, maybe a lil' late person,
wuarggh!
when is the holiday? i want my truly deserved holiday!
19.8.05
all i want to know is why?
Come one and all and see the broken man, talking to himself
He sits and waits for something better, he'll never find it here
The people touch his hair and pinch his cheek; he can't even feel it
There it goes again, he's listening to someone
He hears the bitter laughter
And all he wants to know is...why?
Does any of it matter?
I can't take it anymore...
He sits and waits for something better, he'll never find it here
The people touch his hair and pinch his cheek; he can't even feel it
There it goes again, he's listening to someone
He hears the bitter laughter
And all he wants to know is...why?
Does any of it matter?
I can't take it anymore...
14.8.05
fromomega
What a skeletal wreck of man this is.
Translucent flesh and feeble bones,
the kind of temple where the whores and villains try to tempt the holistic domes.
Running rampid with free thought to free form, and the free and clear.
When the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a
laundry mat to sift and focus on the bigger, better, now.
We all have a little sin that needs venting,
virtues for the rending and laws and systems and stems are ripped
from the branches of office, do you know where your post entails?
Do you serve a purpose, or purposely serve?
When in doubt inside your atavistic allure, the value of sunshine spent, and moonlight earned.
For the rest of us, there is always Sunday.
The day of the week the reeks of rest, but all we do is catch our breath,
To watch the knives zigzag between our aching fingers.
A vacation is a countdown, T minus your life and
counting, time to drag your tongue across the sugar cube,
and hope you get a taste.
What the fuck is all this for?
What the hell's going on? Shut up!
I can go on and on but lets move on, shall we?
Say, your me, and I’m you, and they all watch the things we do,
and like a smack of spite they threw me down the stairs,
haven’t felt like this in years.
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse, let me go,
and punch me into the dead spout again.
That’s where you go when there’s no one else around,
it’s just you, and there was never anyone to begin with, now was there?
Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards with their thumb on the pulse,
and a finger on the trigger.
Classified my ass! That's a fucking secret, and you know it!
Government is another way to say better…than…you.
It’s like ice but no pick, a murder charge that won’t stick,
it’s like a whole other world where you can smell the food,
but you can’t touch the silverware.
Huh, what luck. Fascism you can vote for.
Humph, isn’t that sweet?
when your gaffer taped in the
middle, say a prayer, say a face, get your self together and see what’s happening.
Shut up! Fuck you! Fuck you!
I’m sorry, I could go on and on but
their times to move on so, remember: you’re a wreck, an accident.
Forget the freak, your just nature.
Keep the gun oiled, and the temple cleaned shit snort,
and blaspheme, let the heads cool, and the engine run.
Because in the end, everything we do, is just everything we’ve done.
Translucent flesh and feeble bones,
the kind of temple where the whores and villains try to tempt the holistic domes.
Running rampid with free thought to free form, and the free and clear.
When the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a
laundry mat to sift and focus on the bigger, better, now.
We all have a little sin that needs venting,
virtues for the rending and laws and systems and stems are ripped
from the branches of office, do you know where your post entails?
Do you serve a purpose, or purposely serve?
When in doubt inside your atavistic allure, the value of sunshine spent, and moonlight earned.
For the rest of us, there is always Sunday.
The day of the week the reeks of rest, but all we do is catch our breath,
To watch the knives zigzag between our aching fingers.
A vacation is a countdown, T minus your life and
counting, time to drag your tongue across the sugar cube,
and hope you get a taste.
What the fuck is all this for?
What the hell's going on? Shut up!
I can go on and on but lets move on, shall we?
Say, your me, and I’m you, and they all watch the things we do,
and like a smack of spite they threw me down the stairs,
haven’t felt like this in years.
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse, let me go,
and punch me into the dead spout again.
That’s where you go when there’s no one else around,
it’s just you, and there was never anyone to begin with, now was there?
Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards with their thumb on the pulse,
and a finger on the trigger.
Classified my ass! That's a fucking secret, and you know it!
Government is another way to say better…than…you.
It’s like ice but no pick, a murder charge that won’t stick,
it’s like a whole other world where you can smell the food,
but you can’t touch the silverware.
Huh, what luck. Fascism you can vote for.
Humph, isn’t that sweet?
when your gaffer taped in the
middle, say a prayer, say a face, get your self together and see what’s happening.
Shut up! Fuck you! Fuck you!
I’m sorry, I could go on and on but
their times to move on so, remember: you’re a wreck, an accident.
Forget the freak, your just nature.
Keep the gun oiled, and the temple cleaned shit snort,
and blaspheme, let the heads cool, and the engine run.
Because in the end, everything we do, is just everything we’ve done.
13.8.05
sorry~
i'm sorry guys, having lots of acquaintance telling me to update this blog forced me to log onto this blog and well, update it. i'm still updating the template and etc. maybe after a few months, i'll be an active blogger again. the haze phenomenon in uniten has prohibited me from updating this blog as frequent as usual, furthermore, my midterm exam is just around the corner, pray for me lads~!
p/s: special thanks for aloque for him who told me to update my blog so many many times! lol
p/s: special thanks for aloque for him who told me to update my blog so many many times! lol
13.7.05
so long and goodnite...
i think i gonna stop here for a while~ i want to give 'fool' attention to my studies, in addition to that, theres no internet in amanah. spare me~
[inferior_complexee]
[inferior_complexee]
10.7.05
anger management...
if you it happens that you are very² angry, try to listen to songs using headphone in full volume. it works wonder. you will forget everything and be engulfed in the force. yesterday when i listened to Nymphetamine by Cradle of Filth and Before I Forget by Slipknot using wan's philips headphone, i felt this surge of adrenalyne flowing in my veins, nothing else, just anger and me, banging with all my might, i felt satisfied. (not THAT kind of satisfaction you stupid!) So i listened and banged and sang for almost two hours, i stopped after my neck started to break. calmed down a lil'. need to punch someone in the face no more. tq music.
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A V of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain...
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More with lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)
Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the bind of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
the song that helped me to calm down. why don't you give it a try? try to listen to the song.
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A V of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain...
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More with lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)
Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the bind of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
the song that helped me to calm down. why don't you give it a try? try to listen to the song.
9.7.05
The Jet - Hold On
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
Hold on
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
Hold on
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
about F.U.C.K.
F.U.C.K. (friends you can keep) are not easy to find these days.
for me, i don't care if they are 'keep'able or not, they are my friends. friends are human, and human are weird, thus, friends are weird too, the same goes to the act of befriending, that is friendship. someone you was so friendly to now can be someone you despise then, someone you hate can be someone you trust, someone you knew can be someone you don't or maybe you just don't really know someone you know.
i don't know if it happens that i die, how many of my friends will bother to read the testimony of faith for me, i don't even know if they care. and i know my family will be the people who will stand there by me if anything happens. but, i like to hang out with friends more rather than to hang out with my family. my friends know the real me, not the fake plastic me at home who must show good example to his siblings, who must be the responsible eldest son in the family, when i'm with my friends, i am me, the real me, i felt easy being so.
friends do influence our life, how we behave, study and etc. i don't know if i chose the right friends or not, i put my trust in them, to walk with me together against any thing that stands in our way.
for me, i don't care if they are 'keep'able or not, they are my friends. friends are human, and human are weird, thus, friends are weird too, the same goes to the act of befriending, that is friendship. someone you was so friendly to now can be someone you despise then, someone you hate can be someone you trust, someone you knew can be someone you don't or maybe you just don't really know someone you know.
i don't know if it happens that i die, how many of my friends will bother to read the testimony of faith for me, i don't even know if they care. and i know my family will be the people who will stand there by me if anything happens. but, i like to hang out with friends more rather than to hang out with my family. my friends know the real me, not the fake plastic me at home who must show good example to his siblings, who must be the responsible eldest son in the family, when i'm with my friends, i am me, the real me, i felt easy being so.
friends do influence our life, how we behave, study and etc. i don't know if i chose the right friends or not, i put my trust in them, to walk with me together against any thing that stands in our way.
5.7.05
Stonesour - Monolith
Is this wrong of me? I’ve come so far, so fast
I’m in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real - to me!
I’ve consecrated!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come clean before my eyes!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Visions plague my dreams - oh god, what beast did this?
I couldn’t have oh god, I just don’t know
What’s inside - of me?
I’ve desecrated!
My god, I love to hate it!
My hands are bloody again, there’s no reason why!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, can you stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Within!
going back to Uniten, won't be updating as often anymore. study! this sem's target, 3.50. lol. pray for me okay?
I’m in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real - to me!
I’ve consecrated!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come clean before my eyes!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Visions plague my dreams - oh god, what beast did this?
I couldn’t have oh god, I just don’t know
What’s inside - of me?
I’ve desecrated!
My god, I love to hate it!
My hands are bloody again, there’s no reason why!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, can you stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Within!
going back to Uniten, won't be updating as often anymore. study! this sem's target, 3.50. lol. pray for me okay?
3.7.05
art anyone?
these are the artworks of a soon-to-be famous artist, Huda. the artworks are very delicate, only few people knows what it mean, actually, three people to be exact.
the first masterpiece is a fictional event, where three persons went out together happily. the first person on the left was drawn by the author himself. even the author's artwork looks like childrens drawing compared to Huda's. Huda and the author uses crayons to give the masterpiece a look of real life.
the second masterpiece is a real life event that took place somewhere only we know. this masterpiece is very² valuable as the masterpiece is created by Huda on her own, and directed by the author. this artwork's background is coloured according to the original event.
anyone who want's to buy the masterpieces can do so by bidding in the comments section~
sincerely,
picasscho~
the first masterpiece is a fictional event, where three persons went out together happily. the first person on the left was drawn by the author himself. even the author's artwork looks like childrens drawing compared to Huda's. Huda and the author uses crayons to give the masterpiece a look of real life.
the second masterpiece is a real life event that took place somewhere only we know. this masterpiece is very² valuable as the masterpiece is created by Huda on her own, and directed by the author. this artwork's background is coloured according to the original event.
anyone who want's to buy the masterpieces can do so by bidding in the comments section~
sincerely,
picasscho~
1.7.05
ho ho ho~
tomorrow i'm going out~
i'm happy~ yeeeeaaay!
i'll be going to mid wif hunny after such a long time~
couldn't even remember the last time we went to mid together~
ho ho ho~
i'm happy really, i got cold no more, things just keep getting better and better~
really in my diVULna mode! mmmmm.... erm... u know who you are!
i'm happy~ yeeeeaaay!
i'll be going to mid wif hunny after such a long time~
couldn't even remember the last time we went to mid together~
ho ho ho~
i'm happy really, i got cold no more, things just keep getting better and better~
really in my diVULna mode! mmmmm.... erm... u know who you are!
30.6.05
tick tock tick tock
GWEN STEFANI
WHAT YOU WAITING FOR?
What an amazing time
What a family
How did the years go by?
Now it's only me
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
La la la la la
Like a cat in heat stuck in a moving car
A scary conversations,
Shut my eyes, can't find the brake
What if they say that you're a climber?
Naturally i'm worried if i do it alone
Who really cares cuz it's your life
You never know, it could be great
Take a chance cuz you might grow
Oh... oh ohhh
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Take a chance you stupid Ho
Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish
Your moment will run out
Cuz of your sex chromosome
I know it's so messed up how our society all thinks
Life is short, you're capable
Uh Huh
Oh... oh ohhh
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
I can't wait to go
Back into Japan
Get me lots of brand new fans
Osaka, Tokyo
You Harajuku girls
Damn, you've got some wicked style...
GO!
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
i never loved clocks, i hate the tick tocks sound, i even hate it when it strucks o'clock , the alarm is very disturbing, i hate clocks since i was a lil' child, clocks only brings meaningless noise, unlike music. but when music and tick tocks are merged, the outcome is very² disturbing, yet intriguing, that is only when gwen stefani sang it. i love this song, especially the "Uh Huh, Oh... oh ohhh" part~ cair siot! lol!
WHAT YOU WAITING FOR?
What an amazing time
What a family
How did the years go by?
Now it's only me
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
La la la la la
Like a cat in heat stuck in a moving car
A scary conversations,
Shut my eyes, can't find the brake
What if they say that you're a climber?
Naturally i'm worried if i do it alone
Who really cares cuz it's your life
You never know, it could be great
Take a chance cuz you might grow
Oh... oh ohhh
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Take a chance you stupid Ho
Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish
Your moment will run out
Cuz of your sex chromosome
I know it's so messed up how our society all thinks
Life is short, you're capable
Uh Huh
Oh... oh ohhh
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
I can't wait to go
Back into Japan
Get me lots of brand new fans
Osaka, Tokyo
You Harajuku girls
Damn, you've got some wicked style...
GO!
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
i never loved clocks, i hate the tick tocks sound, i even hate it when it strucks o'clock , the alarm is very disturbing, i hate clocks since i was a lil' child, clocks only brings meaningless noise, unlike music. but when music and tick tocks are merged, the outcome is very² disturbing, yet intriguing, that is only when gwen stefani sang it. i love this song, especially the "Uh Huh, Oh... oh ohhh" part~ cair siot! lol!
Finally, i got sumthing to write!
what a fucking boring day!
woke up at eleven o'clock
took my bath, turned on my computer, clicked the tmnet icon, the username and password are blank, i didn't know the password, couldn't connect to the internet, walked downstair, read the newspaper, ate my brunch (breakfast + lunch), watched tv, slept a lil', followed mom to masriz's, njang ai called, asked me to go out with him, went out with him with mom's approval, went to the mines, went to plaza pkns, went to aizat's (njang's friend), prayed at a surau near aizat's, njang's fuel ran out on the way to serdang, went to projet, bought a bottle of mineral water, emptied the bottle, cut the top of the bottle with my scooter's key, filled the bottle with 50cent worth of petrol (the lil' bottle couldn't hold more gas than that), couldn't ride and hold the bottle, left the bottle at the fuel station, went to take njang to the fuel station, drifted a lil' on the way to njang, told njang to hold the bottle of petrol, went back to his motorcycle, filled the gas to his motorcycle, the motor started after a few tries, went back to the fuel station to fill more gas into his motorcycle, went to serdang, had a few conversation, went back home, took my bath, prayed, wished my hunny goodnite, tried to sleep, couldn't sleep, went to the kitchen to have some bread, tried to sleep again, managed to sleep at 9.30pm, woke up at 11pm, got headache, everybody is asleep except my sis, asked lots of friends to go out, nobody responded, went out alone, went to a cyber, here i am!
LIVE 8 CONCERT
THE LONG WALK TO JUSTICE
Live 8 on air
By JASON CHEAH
Twenty years on, the cause for poverty eradication continues, and Astro subscribers will be able to witness another defining moment in history with the live broadcast of Live 8 this Saturday from 10pm.
Live 8, a star-studded humanitarian event organised in the spirit of 1985’s Live Aid, airs on an exclusive channel, Astro LIVE 8 (Astro Channel 88), while on radio, MIX FM will be broadcasting the entire proceedings.
The original Live Aid was the brainchild of two pop stars turned activists, Sir Bob Geldof (Boomtown Rats) and Midge Ure (Ultravox). It was staged to raise funds for famine relief in Ethiopia. The two trans-Atlantic concerts brought together 60 of the most popular rock stars of that generation to perform in front of a live audience of 162,000 (90,000 in Philadelphia and 72,000 in London) and broadcast to an estimated 1.9 billion TV viewers in 150 countries.
This Saturday, Geldof, now joined by rock icon Bono of U2 and music promoter Harvey Goldsmith, is planning an even more massive gathering of the world’s biggest artistes. They will perform in SIX locations for one purpose: to demand the G8 leaders, who will be meeting in Edinburgh, Scotland, from July 6 to 8, to act against extreme poverty.
The concerts will be held in London’s Hyde Park (England), Rome’s Circus Maximus (Italy), the Palais de Versailles in Paris (France), the Pottsdamer Platz in Berlin (Germany), the Museum of Arts in Philadelphia (US), and in Park Place, Barrie (Canada).
You can log on to www.live8live.com for more information.
The simulcast will run about 11 hours. The line-up, as confirmed to date:
Saturday 2nd July, 2005.
UK – Hyde Park, London
Annie Lennox, Bob Geldof, Coldplay, Dido, Elton John, Joss Stone, Keane, The Killers,Madonna, Mariah Carey, Ms. Dynamite, Paul McCartney, Pink Floyd, Razorlight, REM, Robbie Williams, Scissor Sisters, Snoop Dogg, Snow Patrol, Stereophonics, Sting, Travis, U2, UB40, Velvet Revolver
Edinburgh - Edinburgh 50,000 - The Final Push
Annie Lennox, Snow Patrol, Travis, The Sugababes, Ronan Keating, Beverly Knight, The Corrs, Natasha Bedingfield, Proclaimers, Texas, Youssou N’Dour, McFly, Bob Geldof, Midge Ure, African artists from Peter Gabriel’s WOMAD
France – Palais de Versailles, Paris
Andrea Bocelli with the Philarmonie der Nationen, Amel Bent, Axelle Red, Calogero, Cerrone / Nile Rogers, Craig David, The Cure, David Hallyday, Diam's, Dido, Disiz, La Peste, Indochine, Faudel, Florent Pagny, Kool Shen, Kyo, Louis Bertignac, Matt Copora, Muse, Placebo, Raphael, Shakira, Sheryl Crow, Tina Arena, Yannick Noah, Youssou N'Dour
Germany – Siegessäule, Berlin
A-ha, Audioslave, Bap, Brian Wilson, Chris de Burgh, Crosby Stills & Nash, Die, Toten Hosen, Faithless, Green Day, Herbert Groenemeyer, Joana Zimmer, Juan Diego Florez, Juli, Katherine Jenkins, Reamonn, Renee Olstead, Roxy Music, Sasha, Silbermond, Soehne Mannheims, Wir Sind Helden
Italy – Circus Maximus, Rome
Antonello Venditti, Articolo 31, Biagio Antonacci, Claudio Baglioni, Elisa, Faith Hill, Francesco De Gregori, Gemelli Diversi, Irene Grandi, Jovanotti, Laura Pausini, Le Vibrazioni, Luciano Ligabue, Max Pezzali, Negramaro, Negrita, Nek, Noa, Piero Pelu, Pino Daniele, Povia, Renato Zero, Tim McGraw, Tiromancino, Velvet
USA –Museum of Art, Philadelphia
Alicia Keys, Black Eyed Peas, Bon Jovi, Dave Matthews Band, Def Leppard, Destiny's Child, Jay-Z, Josh Groban, Kaiser Chiefs, Keith Urban, Linkin Park, Maroon 5, PDiddy, Rob Thomas, Sarah McLachlan, Stevie Wonder, Toby Keith
Canada –Park Place, Barrie
African Guitar Summit, Barenaked Ladies, Blue Rodeo, Bruce Cockburn, Bryan Adams, The Bachman Cummings Band, Deep Purple, DobaCaracol featuring Kna'an, Gordon, Lightfoot, Great Big Sea, Jann Arden, Jet, Les Trois Accords, Motley Crue, Our Lady Peace, Sam Roberts, Simple Plan, Tegan & Sara, The Tragically Hip, Tom Cochrane
Japan –Makuhari Messe, Tokyo
Bjork, Def Tech, Dreams Come True, Good Charlotte, McFly, Rize
South Africa –Mary Fitzgerald Square, Newtown, Johannesburg
4Peace Ensemble, Jabu Khanyile and Bayete, Lindiwe, Lucky Dube, Mahotella Queens, Malaika, Orchestre Baobab, Oumou Sengare, Vusi Mahlasela, Zola
The Russian Federation - Red Square, Moscow
Line up yet to be confirmed
[adapted from The Star]
28.6.05
Alhamdulillah!
Congratulations!
You have successfully completed your Foundation Program
You may collect your transcript and offer letter beginning 4th July 2005 (during 8.30am - 4.30pm) at:
For Foundation for Information Technology, Computer Science and Engineering
- 4th July 2005 (Monday)
Gallery, Ground Floor, Admin Building, Km7, Jalan Kajang Puchong, 43009 Kajang, Selangor.
- 5th July onwards (Tuesday onwards)
Office of The Registrar (to collect transcript and offer letter), 2nd Floor, Admin Building, Km7, Jalan Kajang Puchong, 43009 Kajang, Selangor.
For Foundation for Accounting, Finance and Business Administration
Administration Office, Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah Building, 26700 Bandar Muadzam Shah, Pahang.
Your new Student ID is EP076563
Your new Student ID has been activated. Your TIME TABLE for the new student ID should be visible now
Students are required to complete their study plan for First Semester, 2005/2006 on 7th July 2005 (8.30am - 4.00pm). Please go to KMC or any computer terminal in Uniten (except students apartment) to change your password (based on your new Student ID) that you will be using for online registration and computer lab access. This can be done from 30th June 2005 onwards. You do so by keying in your new Student ID for both your Username and your Password. After pressing ENTER, you will be requested to enter a new password. For further details, please contact the KMC Helpdesk.
Please ensure that your name is spelled correctly (as in your Identity Card / Passport) your online biodata. Changes must be made before 4th July 2005. You may collect your Foundation certificate starting from 1st August 2005 at the Office of the Registrar (Bangi Campus) or Administration Office(KSHAS)
finally, after two weeks of waiting~ i got my result! i am a bachelor student! i'm so happy! eventhough my result sucks as hell, well, what the hell, my pointer will restart from zero automatically after my degree starts!
hurm~ now, i only need to cut my hair, fast for a week, think about how to tell my parent about my result, search for a new funds for my study as my scholarship will be cancelled coz of my result. well, what the hell~
i'm happy and happy~!
You have successfully completed your Foundation Program
You may collect your transcript and offer letter beginning 4th July 2005 (during 8.30am - 4.30pm) at:
For Foundation for Information Technology, Computer Science and Engineering
- 4th July 2005 (Monday)
Gallery, Ground Floor, Admin Building, Km7, Jalan Kajang Puchong, 43009 Kajang, Selangor.
- 5th July onwards (Tuesday onwards)
Office of The Registrar (to collect transcript and offer letter), 2nd Floor, Admin Building, Km7, Jalan Kajang Puchong, 43009 Kajang, Selangor.
For Foundation for Accounting, Finance and Business Administration
Administration Office, Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah Building, 26700 Bandar Muadzam Shah, Pahang.
Your new Student ID is EP076563
Your new Student ID has been activated. Your TIME TABLE for the new student ID should be visible now
Students are required to complete their study plan for First Semester, 2005/2006 on 7th July 2005 (8.30am - 4.00pm). Please go to KMC or any computer terminal in Uniten (except students apartment) to change your password (based on your new Student ID) that you will be using for online registration and computer lab access. This can be done from 30th June 2005 onwards. You do so by keying in your new Student ID for both your Username and your Password. After pressing ENTER, you will be requested to enter a new password. For further details, please contact the KMC Helpdesk.
Please ensure that your name is spelled correctly (as in your Identity Card / Passport) your online biodata. Changes must be made before 4th July 2005. You may collect your Foundation certificate starting from 1st August 2005 at the Office of the Registrar (Bangi Campus) or Administration Office(KSHAS)
finally, after two weeks of waiting~ i got my result! i am a bachelor student! i'm so happy! eventhough my result sucks as hell, well, what the hell, my pointer will restart from zero automatically after my degree starts!
hurm~ now, i only need to cut my hair, fast for a week, think about how to tell my parent about my result, search for a new funds for my study as my scholarship will be cancelled coz of my result. well, what the hell~
i'm happy and happy~!
27.6.05
about the previous post
plz dun take it seriously~ i'm just joking!
phew, i dunno what's wrong with me today.
i'm not as productive as usual~
i wonder why... [hint: yesterday was June 26th]
huhu~
Wednesday, June 15, 2005 - SLIPKNOT IN SINGAPORE
Slipknot is currently touring in Europe (see Tour section for dates), but will be heading to Japan, and now Singapore. In fact, tickets for the Singapore show, which will be August 16th, go on sale this coming friday, and can be gotten online at www.sistic.com.sg .
Venue: Fort Canning Park
[ source: www.slipknot1.com ]
Synopsis
BARON’S STRONG BREW is proud to present SLIPKNOT “The Subliminal Verses Tour” Live in Singapore on August 16th at Fort Canning Park.
The only show in Asia! Slipknot is going to rock Singapore like its never been rocked before!
Fans and critics unanimously agree that Slipknot is the most exciting rock band in the World today!
Best Live Act of 2005! Best Band of 2005! Best Album of 2005! Best Song of 2005! - Revolver Magazine 2005 Readers Poll Awards
"Slipknot are simply a band that need to be seen to be believed!" - KERRANG MAGAZINE
“Throughout the nihilistic 100-minute, 15 song set, the group’s status as definers of the new millennium heavy metal aesthetic was undeniable!" - CLEVELAND PLAIN DEALER NEWSPAPER
“There’s clearly substance behind the (band’s) style…Slipknot proved its shows are a visual and musical experience.” – LOWELL SUN NEWSPAPER (MA)
phew, i dunno what's wrong with me today.
i'm not as productive as usual~
i wonder why... [hint: yesterday was June 26th]
huhu~
Wednesday, June 15, 2005 - SLIPKNOT IN SINGAPORE
Slipknot is currently touring in Europe (see Tour section for dates), but will be heading to Japan, and now Singapore. In fact, tickets for the Singapore show, which will be August 16th, go on sale this coming friday, and can be gotten online at www.sistic.com.sg .
Venue: Fort Canning Park
[ source: www.slipknot1.com ]
Synopsis
BARON’S STRONG BREW is proud to present SLIPKNOT “The Subliminal Verses Tour” Live in Singapore on August 16th at Fort Canning Park.
The only show in Asia! Slipknot is going to rock Singapore like its never been rocked before!
Fans and critics unanimously agree that Slipknot is the most exciting rock band in the World today!
Best Live Act of 2005! Best Band of 2005! Best Album of 2005! Best Song of 2005! - Revolver Magazine 2005 Readers Poll Awards
"Slipknot are simply a band that need to be seen to be believed!" - KERRANG MAGAZINE
“Throughout the nihilistic 100-minute, 15 song set, the group’s status as definers of the new millennium heavy metal aesthetic was undeniable!" - CLEVELAND PLAIN DEALER NEWSPAPER
“There’s clearly substance behind the (band’s) style…Slipknot proved its shows are a visual and musical experience.” – LOWELL SUN NEWSPAPER (MA)
premiere
this is it...
my premiere post on the all new Synthetic Plastic Medula Oblongata~
this used to be my blog, not too flexible, so i switched to this blogger site. this is considered as a "hijrah" too right? i modified my blog design today, i've thrown in some links, added a lil' javascript, and i decided to not to put the clock cursor because the words behind it will disappear.
i found lots of new source of javascript at this new website (i'm not planning to reveal the url as this will automatically decrease the rarity of the javascript i'm using).
i'll modify my blog from time to time, it seems that i'm starting to be addicted to this blogging thingy, eventhough i've got nothing to tell.
the topic is about a competition, about winning and losing, about battle and war...
since i was a lil' baby, my parent always tried to compare me with my cousins and peers. i grow up in a competitive atmosphere. out of all my cousins, there is this one particular person which always managed to give me a tough fight. eventhough we're not in the same school, the distance from kuala kangsar and gombak is too little to close the competition. at standard one, he won because he became a class monitor, while the young me, still lacking of leadership skills, only become a nobody in my class.
come 1996, i was in standard 3, i passed my pts test, while he does not. that is surely a victory. after i skipped my fourth grade, i saved a year and take the lead with no competitors in the batch i skipped into, but... i became a passive person as a result of lack of competition. i took my upsr in 1998, i've got a good result, the next year, he too, got exactly the same result as mine, but he was admitted to a boarding school, while i'm not.
and then, in 2001, i took my pmr examination, with a so-so result, not an excellent one, i was admitted to a boarding school too, but it was a bit too late i think... he got 9As for his pmr, excellent one. but the worst is yet to come, he got 10As for his spm, when my spm result is a pure catastrophy. he will be flying to india to further his studies in medication. and i...
well, i won the battle, he won the war... and yes, i've to admit, i'm a sore loser.
sincerely,
[the winner of the battle, the loser of the war]
my premiere post on the all new Synthetic Plastic Medula Oblongata~
this used to be my blog, not too flexible, so i switched to this blogger site. this is considered as a "hijrah" too right? i modified my blog design today, i've thrown in some links, added a lil' javascript, and i decided to not to put the clock cursor because the words behind it will disappear.
i found lots of new source of javascript at this new website (i'm not planning to reveal the url as this will automatically decrease the rarity of the javascript i'm using).
i'll modify my blog from time to time, it seems that i'm starting to be addicted to this blogging thingy, eventhough i've got nothing to tell.
the topic is about a competition, about winning and losing, about battle and war...
since i was a lil' baby, my parent always tried to compare me with my cousins and peers. i grow up in a competitive atmosphere. out of all my cousins, there is this one particular person which always managed to give me a tough fight. eventhough we're not in the same school, the distance from kuala kangsar and gombak is too little to close the competition. at standard one, he won because he became a class monitor, while the young me, still lacking of leadership skills, only become a nobody in my class.
come 1996, i was in standard 3, i passed my pts test, while he does not. that is surely a victory. after i skipped my fourth grade, i saved a year and take the lead with no competitors in the batch i skipped into, but... i became a passive person as a result of lack of competition. i took my upsr in 1998, i've got a good result, the next year, he too, got exactly the same result as mine, but he was admitted to a boarding school, while i'm not.
and then, in 2001, i took my pmr examination, with a so-so result, not an excellent one, i was admitted to a boarding school too, but it was a bit too late i think... he got 9As for his pmr, excellent one. but the worst is yet to come, he got 10As for his spm, when my spm result is a pure catastrophy. he will be flying to india to further his studies in medication. and i...
well, i won the battle, he won the war... and yes, i've to admit, i'm a sore loser.
sincerely,
[the winner of the battle, the loser of the war]
24.6.05
new and improved!
a new place for my blog~
better than friendster's!
for my previous posts,
you can go to the [old synthetic plastic medula oblongata]
until then~
better than friendster's!
for my previous posts,
you can go to the [old synthetic plastic medula oblongata]
until then~
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