tired

i'm tired of being lonely facing my probs. cant hold myself together much longer. alone and lonely. i hate being lonely. ignoring a part of myself. it's still there, not gone, just ignored. like a pizza, with a slice pizza incomplete, it is a whole pizza no more. i am myself no more, just part of me, so should you call me by the name c(1/2)h or am?

needs new means to divert my attentions. the thing is building up inside of me. is this real? i can't make this unreal. home is where my numb heart died. all of the days have passed me by, all of the sun is gone... away. -dead (i wish)-