different shoes~

you will never understand sumone until you are in his position. an inferior being will hope that their superior will understand them. superiors here are defined as sumone who has more advantage than the inferiors; and the example of these advantages varies from having lots of money, to having too many lots of very very affectionate opposite sex friends. superiors tend to forget what it likes being an inferior, or maybe they never had the chance to be an inferior. thus, the inferior dun have any power to change the superior's mind about anything, eventhough he tried times and times again. i guess my therapy no longer works.

my flaws are the only thing left that's pure. can't really live, can't really endure. everything i see reminds me of her. god i wish i didn't care anymore. the more i touch the less i feel. i'm lying to myself that it's not real. why is everybody making such a big fucking deal? i'm never gonna care anymore. what the hell am i doing? is there anyone left in my life? what the fuck was i thinking? anybody want to tell me i'm fine? where the hell am i going? do i even need reasons to hide? i am only betrayed. i am only conditioned to die.