i think i gonna stop here for a while~ i want to give 'fool' attention to my studies, in addition to that, theres no internet in amanah. spare me~
[inferior_complexee]
10.7.05
anger management...
if you it happens that you are very² angry, try to listen to songs using headphone in full volume. it works wonder. you will forget everything and be engulfed in the force. yesterday when i listened to Nymphetamine by Cradle of Filth and Before I Forget by Slipknot using wan's philips headphone, i felt this surge of adrenalyne flowing in my veins, nothing else, just anger and me, banging with all my might, i felt satisfied. (not THAT kind of satisfaction you stupid!) So i listened and banged and sang for almost two hours, i stopped after my neck started to break. calmed down a lil'. need to punch someone in the face no more. tq music.
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A V of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain...
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More with lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)
Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the bind of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
the song that helped me to calm down. why don't you give it a try? try to listen to the song.
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A V of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain...
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More with lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)
Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the bind of your lowliness
I could always find
The rights slot for your sacred key...
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
the song that helped me to calm down. why don't you give it a try? try to listen to the song.
9.7.05
The Jet - Hold On
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
Hold on
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are, you are
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
Hold on
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
about F.U.C.K.
F.U.C.K. (friends you can keep) are not easy to find these days.
for me, i don't care if they are 'keep'able or not, they are my friends. friends are human, and human are weird, thus, friends are weird too, the same goes to the act of befriending, that is friendship. someone you was so friendly to now can be someone you despise then, someone you hate can be someone you trust, someone you knew can be someone you don't or maybe you just don't really know someone you know.
i don't know if it happens that i die, how many of my friends will bother to read the testimony of faith for me, i don't even know if they care. and i know my family will be the people who will stand there by me if anything happens. but, i like to hang out with friends more rather than to hang out with my family. my friends know the real me, not the fake plastic me at home who must show good example to his siblings, who must be the responsible eldest son in the family, when i'm with my friends, i am me, the real me, i felt easy being so.
friends do influence our life, how we behave, study and etc. i don't know if i chose the right friends or not, i put my trust in them, to walk with me together against any thing that stands in our way.
for me, i don't care if they are 'keep'able or not, they are my friends. friends are human, and human are weird, thus, friends are weird too, the same goes to the act of befriending, that is friendship. someone you was so friendly to now can be someone you despise then, someone you hate can be someone you trust, someone you knew can be someone you don't or maybe you just don't really know someone you know.
i don't know if it happens that i die, how many of my friends will bother to read the testimony of faith for me, i don't even know if they care. and i know my family will be the people who will stand there by me if anything happens. but, i like to hang out with friends more rather than to hang out with my family. my friends know the real me, not the fake plastic me at home who must show good example to his siblings, who must be the responsible eldest son in the family, when i'm with my friends, i am me, the real me, i felt easy being so.
friends do influence our life, how we behave, study and etc. i don't know if i chose the right friends or not, i put my trust in them, to walk with me together against any thing that stands in our way.
5.7.05
Stonesour - Monolith
Is this wrong of me? I’ve come so far, so fast
I’m in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real - to me!
I’ve consecrated!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come clean before my eyes!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Visions plague my dreams - oh god, what beast did this?
I couldn’t have oh god, I just don’t know
What’s inside - of me?
I’ve desecrated!
My god, I love to hate it!
My hands are bloody again, there’s no reason why!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, can you stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Within!
going back to Uniten, won't be updating as often anymore. study! this sem's target, 3.50. lol. pray for me okay?
I’m in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real - to me!
I’ve consecrated!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come clean before my eyes!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Visions plague my dreams - oh god, what beast did this?
I couldn’t have oh god, I just don’t know
What’s inside - of me?
I’ve desecrated!
My god, I love to hate it!
My hands are bloody again, there’s no reason why!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, can you stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Within!
going back to Uniten, won't be updating as often anymore. study! this sem's target, 3.50. lol. pray for me okay?
3.7.05
art anyone?
these are the artworks of a soon-to-be famous artist, Huda. the artworks are very delicate, only few people knows what it mean, actually, three people to be exact.
the first masterpiece is a fictional event, where three persons went out together happily. the first person on the left was drawn by the author himself. even the author's artwork looks like childrens drawing compared to Huda's. Huda and the author uses crayons to give the masterpiece a look of real life.
the second masterpiece is a real life event that took place somewhere only we know. this masterpiece is very² valuable as the masterpiece is created by Huda on her own, and directed by the author. this artwork's background is coloured according to the original event.
anyone who want's to buy the masterpieces can do so by bidding in the comments section~
sincerely,
picasscho~
the first masterpiece is a fictional event, where three persons went out together happily. the first person on the left was drawn by the author himself. even the author's artwork looks like childrens drawing compared to Huda's. Huda and the author uses crayons to give the masterpiece a look of real life.
the second masterpiece is a real life event that took place somewhere only we know. this masterpiece is very² valuable as the masterpiece is created by Huda on her own, and directed by the author. this artwork's background is coloured according to the original event.
anyone who want's to buy the masterpieces can do so by bidding in the comments section~
sincerely,
picasscho~
1.7.05
ho ho ho~
tomorrow i'm going out~
i'm happy~ yeeeeaaay!
i'll be going to mid wif hunny after such a long time~
couldn't even remember the last time we went to mid together~
ho ho ho~
i'm happy really, i got cold no more, things just keep getting better and better~
really in my diVULna mode! mmmmm.... erm... u know who you are!
i'm happy~ yeeeeaaay!
i'll be going to mid wif hunny after such a long time~
couldn't even remember the last time we went to mid together~
ho ho ho~
i'm happy really, i got cold no more, things just keep getting better and better~
really in my diVULna mode! mmmmm.... erm... u know who you are!
30.6.05
tick tock tick tock
GWEN STEFANI
WHAT YOU WAITING FOR?
What an amazing time
What a family
How did the years go by?
Now it's only me
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
La la la la la
Like a cat in heat stuck in a moving car
A scary conversations,
Shut my eyes, can't find the brake
What if they say that you're a climber?
Naturally i'm worried if i do it alone
Who really cares cuz it's your life
You never know, it could be great
Take a chance cuz you might grow
Oh... oh ohhh
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Take a chance you stupid Ho
Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish
Your moment will run out
Cuz of your sex chromosome
I know it's so messed up how our society all thinks
Life is short, you're capable
Uh Huh
Oh... oh ohhh
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
I can't wait to go
Back into Japan
Get me lots of brand new fans
Osaka, Tokyo
You Harajuku girls
Damn, you've got some wicked style...
GO!
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
i never loved clocks, i hate the tick tocks sound, i even hate it when it strucks o'clock , the alarm is very disturbing, i hate clocks since i was a lil' child, clocks only brings meaningless noise, unlike music. but when music and tick tocks are merged, the outcome is very² disturbing, yet intriguing, that is only when gwen stefani sang it. i love this song, especially the "Uh Huh, Oh... oh ohhh" part~ cair siot! lol!
WHAT YOU WAITING FOR?
What an amazing time
What a family
How did the years go by?
Now it's only me
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
La la la la la
Like a cat in heat stuck in a moving car
A scary conversations,
Shut my eyes, can't find the brake
What if they say that you're a climber?
Naturally i'm worried if i do it alone
Who really cares cuz it's your life
You never know, it could be great
Take a chance cuz you might grow
Oh... oh ohhh
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Take a chance you stupid Ho
Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish
Your moment will run out
Cuz of your sex chromosome
I know it's so messed up how our society all thinks
Life is short, you're capable
Uh Huh
Oh... oh ohhh
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
I can't wait to go
Back into Japan
Get me lots of brand new fans
Osaka, Tokyo
You Harajuku girls
Damn, you've got some wicked style...
GO!
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho
i never loved clocks, i hate the tick tocks sound, i even hate it when it strucks o'clock , the alarm is very disturbing, i hate clocks since i was a lil' child, clocks only brings meaningless noise, unlike music. but when music and tick tocks are merged, the outcome is very² disturbing, yet intriguing, that is only when gwen stefani sang it. i love this song, especially the "Uh Huh, Oh... oh ohhh" part~ cair siot! lol!
Finally, i got sumthing to write!
what a fucking boring day!
woke up at eleven o'clock
took my bath, turned on my computer, clicked the tmnet icon, the username and password are blank, i didn't know the password, couldn't connect to the internet, walked downstair, read the newspaper, ate my brunch (breakfast + lunch), watched tv, slept a lil', followed mom to masriz's, njang ai called, asked me to go out with him, went out with him with mom's approval, went to the mines, went to plaza pkns, went to aizat's (njang's friend), prayed at a surau near aizat's, njang's fuel ran out on the way to serdang, went to projet, bought a bottle of mineral water, emptied the bottle, cut the top of the bottle with my scooter's key, filled the bottle with 50cent worth of petrol (the lil' bottle couldn't hold more gas than that), couldn't ride and hold the bottle, left the bottle at the fuel station, went to take njang to the fuel station, drifted a lil' on the way to njang, told njang to hold the bottle of petrol, went back to his motorcycle, filled the gas to his motorcycle, the motor started after a few tries, went back to the fuel station to fill more gas into his motorcycle, went to serdang, had a few conversation, went back home, took my bath, prayed, wished my hunny goodnite, tried to sleep, couldn't sleep, went to the kitchen to have some bread, tried to sleep again, managed to sleep at 9.30pm, woke up at 11pm, got headache, everybody is asleep except my sis, asked lots of friends to go out, nobody responded, went out alone, went to a cyber, here i am!
LIVE 8 CONCERT
THE LONG WALK TO JUSTICE
Live 8 on air
By JASON CHEAH
Twenty years on, the cause for poverty eradication continues, and Astro subscribers will be able to witness another defining moment in history with the live broadcast of Live 8 this Saturday from 10pm.
Live 8, a star-studded humanitarian event organised in the spirit of 1985’s Live Aid, airs on an exclusive channel, Astro LIVE 8 (Astro Channel 88), while on radio, MIX FM will be broadcasting the entire proceedings.
The original Live Aid was the brainchild of two pop stars turned activists, Sir Bob Geldof (Boomtown Rats) and Midge Ure (Ultravox). It was staged to raise funds for famine relief in Ethiopia. The two trans-Atlantic concerts brought together 60 of the most popular rock stars of that generation to perform in front of a live audience of 162,000 (90,000 in Philadelphia and 72,000 in London) and broadcast to an estimated 1.9 billion TV viewers in 150 countries.
This Saturday, Geldof, now joined by rock icon Bono of U2 and music promoter Harvey Goldsmith, is planning an even more massive gathering of the world’s biggest artistes. They will perform in SIX locations for one purpose: to demand the G8 leaders, who will be meeting in Edinburgh, Scotland, from July 6 to 8, to act against extreme poverty.
The concerts will be held in London’s Hyde Park (England), Rome’s Circus Maximus (Italy), the Palais de Versailles in Paris (France), the Pottsdamer Platz in Berlin (Germany), the Museum of Arts in Philadelphia (US), and in Park Place, Barrie (Canada).
You can log on to www.live8live.com for more information.
The simulcast will run about 11 hours. The line-up, as confirmed to date:
Saturday 2nd July, 2005.
UK – Hyde Park, London
Annie Lennox, Bob Geldof, Coldplay, Dido, Elton John, Joss Stone, Keane, The Killers,Madonna, Mariah Carey, Ms. Dynamite, Paul McCartney, Pink Floyd, Razorlight, REM, Robbie Williams, Scissor Sisters, Snoop Dogg, Snow Patrol, Stereophonics, Sting, Travis, U2, UB40, Velvet Revolver
Edinburgh - Edinburgh 50,000 - The Final Push
Annie Lennox, Snow Patrol, Travis, The Sugababes, Ronan Keating, Beverly Knight, The Corrs, Natasha Bedingfield, Proclaimers, Texas, Youssou N’Dour, McFly, Bob Geldof, Midge Ure, African artists from Peter Gabriel’s WOMAD
France – Palais de Versailles, Paris
Andrea Bocelli with the Philarmonie der Nationen, Amel Bent, Axelle Red, Calogero, Cerrone / Nile Rogers, Craig David, The Cure, David Hallyday, Diam's, Dido, Disiz, La Peste, Indochine, Faudel, Florent Pagny, Kool Shen, Kyo, Louis Bertignac, Matt Copora, Muse, Placebo, Raphael, Shakira, Sheryl Crow, Tina Arena, Yannick Noah, Youssou N'Dour
Germany – Siegessäule, Berlin
A-ha, Audioslave, Bap, Brian Wilson, Chris de Burgh, Crosby Stills & Nash, Die, Toten Hosen, Faithless, Green Day, Herbert Groenemeyer, Joana Zimmer, Juan Diego Florez, Juli, Katherine Jenkins, Reamonn, Renee Olstead, Roxy Music, Sasha, Silbermond, Soehne Mannheims, Wir Sind Helden
Italy – Circus Maximus, Rome
Antonello Venditti, Articolo 31, Biagio Antonacci, Claudio Baglioni, Elisa, Faith Hill, Francesco De Gregori, Gemelli Diversi, Irene Grandi, Jovanotti, Laura Pausini, Le Vibrazioni, Luciano Ligabue, Max Pezzali, Negramaro, Negrita, Nek, Noa, Piero Pelu, Pino Daniele, Povia, Renato Zero, Tim McGraw, Tiromancino, Velvet
USA –Museum of Art, Philadelphia
Alicia Keys, Black Eyed Peas, Bon Jovi, Dave Matthews Band, Def Leppard, Destiny's Child, Jay-Z, Josh Groban, Kaiser Chiefs, Keith Urban, Linkin Park, Maroon 5, PDiddy, Rob Thomas, Sarah McLachlan, Stevie Wonder, Toby Keith
Canada –Park Place, Barrie
African Guitar Summit, Barenaked Ladies, Blue Rodeo, Bruce Cockburn, Bryan Adams, The Bachman Cummings Band, Deep Purple, DobaCaracol featuring Kna'an, Gordon, Lightfoot, Great Big Sea, Jann Arden, Jet, Les Trois Accords, Motley Crue, Our Lady Peace, Sam Roberts, Simple Plan, Tegan & Sara, The Tragically Hip, Tom Cochrane
Japan –Makuhari Messe, Tokyo
Bjork, Def Tech, Dreams Come True, Good Charlotte, McFly, Rize
South Africa –Mary Fitzgerald Square, Newtown, Johannesburg
4Peace Ensemble, Jabu Khanyile and Bayete, Lindiwe, Lucky Dube, Mahotella Queens, Malaika, Orchestre Baobab, Oumou Sengare, Vusi Mahlasela, Zola
The Russian Federation - Red Square, Moscow
Line up yet to be confirmed
[adapted from The Star]
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